Well, I don’t watch too much TV to begin with, but one of the only shows I watch is Glee… call it boring, call it stupid, but hey I like the music, the plot is at least somewhat exciting, and the characters are really fun to watch. I may not agree with everything the show claims to embody and promote, but at the end of the day I still enjoy it :)
This isn’t to say I fear God’s judgment, because I know that his son Jesus Christ has already purchased my soul with his blood and I am forgiven of all my sins. God is an infinitely merciful, loving, and compassionate God for doing this for me and for many, many others out there.
But God is also a God to be feared; in Proverbs 9:10, it says that, “The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.” We need to recognize that this is the God who had the power to create the entire universe, who wiped out almost the entire living population of men and animals at one time (except for Noah, his fambam, and all them critters), who struck down all of Egypt with the ten plagues; he is not a God to be trifled with. He is an awesome God, and we need to recognize the magnitude of His glory and be in awe of him.
So yes. More than the fear of death, of rejection, of what other people think about me, of getting robbed again in Oakland, more than anything else, I fear my Maker and Creator and Lord and Father in heaven.
In open fields of wild flowers, she breathes the air and flies away She thanks her Jesus for the daises and the roses in no simple language Someday she’ll understand the meaning of it all He’s more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens As close a heartbeat or a song on her lips Someday she’ll trust Him and learn how to see Him Someday He’ll call her and she will come running and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and she’ll pray,
“I want to fall in love with You”
Sitting silent wearing Sunday best The sermon echoes through the walls A great salvation through it calls to the people who stare into nowhere, and can’t feel the chains on their souls
He’s more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens As close a heartbeat or a song on our lips Someday we’ll trust Him and learn how to see Him Someday He’ll call us and we will come running and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and we’ll pray,
“I want to fall in love with You”
It seems too easy to call you “Savior”, Not close enough to call you “God” So as I sit and think of words I can mention to show my devotion
"There was a man who had two sons. And the younger of them said to his father, ‘Father, give me the share of property that is coming to me.’ And he divided his property between them. Not many days later, the younger son gathered all he had and took a journey into a far country, and there he squandered his property in reckless living. And when he had spent everything, a severe famine arose in that country, and he began to be in need. So he went and hired himself out to one of the citizens of that country, who sent him into his fields to feed pigs. And he was longing to be fed with the pods that the pigs ate, and no one gave him anything.
But when he came to himself, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have more than enough bread, but I perish here with hunger! I will arise and go to my father, and I will say to him, “Father I have sinned against heaven and before you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son. Treat me as one of your hired servants.”’ And he arose and came to his father. But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and felt compassion, and ran and embraced him and kissed him. And the son said to him, ‘Father I have sinned against heaven and before you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’ But the father said to his servants, ‘Bring quickly the best robe, and put it on him, and put a ring on his hand, and shoes on his feet. And bring the fattened calf and kill it, and let us eat and celebrate. For my son was dead and is alive again; he was lost, and is found.’ And they began to celebrate.”
- Luke 15:11-24
THIS is the joy that our Father in heaven has every single time we repent of our sins and come asking guiltily, shamefully for forgiveness; he is SO eager, SO willing, SO loving to forgive us of any and all trespasses, and all of heaven rejoices with him.
And it doesn’t end there; we can leave our Father’s house, forsake him and his everlasting promises over and over again, and yet when we come back to him humbled, broken, and afraid that, perhaps, this was the last straw, he will break out the welcome banner again, prepare another feast for us and cleanse us of all the sinful filth that we’ve been covered in. He will run to meet us and take us back with open arms… for Jesus Christ has paid the price for ALL of our sins.
HAHA. Well, for one, I don’t really listen to much music at all, which is something I want to improve on. And before I go into this topic, I just want to put a disclaimer saying that I’m not really sure if this is what “mainstream” music is, but this is my interpretation of the term.
The “mainstream” stuff I’ve heard so far (i.e. Nicki Minaj, Chris Brown, Usher, Rihanna etc.) is just… meh. Granted, that’s not really my favorite style of music, but I wish songs had more substance and meaning to them nowadays, and talked less about sex =.= A couple years ago, I heard a kid about my little brother’s age singing “Birthday Sex” and I was just absolutely appalled… say what you want about exposing them to the real world or whatever, but it’s progressed to the point where everyone is super-desensitized and that’s not right. There ARE levels of social decency, and I feel like that also affects music (and vice-versa), especially when it’s something so mainstream that’s constantly played on the radio. Maybe that’s just how things are nowadays, I don’t know.
"I will sing of steadfast love and justice; to you, O Lord, I will make music. I will ponder the way that is blameless. Oh when will you come to me? I will walk with integrity of heart within my house; I will not set before my eyes anything that is worthless. I hate the work of those who fall away; it shall not cling to me. A perverse heart shall be far from me; I will know nothing of evil.”
Hmm. I guess there are several (very vague) memories that I can think of… not really sure where they are chronologically, but I’ll put them all down anyways :P
1. My grandmother’s funeral (yeah, I know, depressing) - I remember there were rows of white chairs and a tent to my left with some people under it, and there was some sort of construction machine (probably to do the actual burying) in front of me… and the sun was setting. Chronologically I think I was about 2-1/2 years old.
2. Walking on a sea of toys - in our old house, all the toys I owned were stacked against the wall of the living room, and I think I had enough to line 1.5 walls (I was a spoiled little munchkin). Sometimes when I was bored I would walk on top of the stack and see how far I could get across.
3. Sitting in the stairwell of my grandparents’ old house at Christmastime - I got a Power Rangers robot that year :P
4. My grandpa coming over for dinner at our old house - I was eating soup and rice, and I remember the table was really high >.>
5. Watching “Gargoyles” on the old TV… anyone remember that show???
6. Eating at PCH Chinese Restaurant - This was (and still is) our family’s tradition to eat together at this restaurant every Sunday. Since it changed into an Indian restaurant, we’ve been going to Harbor Palace instead :P I remember all I would ever eat was the beef fried rice. Literally nothing else. I was pretty picky back then.
7. Swimming around in a collapsible plastic swimming pool in our old backyard - It was pretty lame because the walls never stayed up so my mom had to hold it up while I splashed around.
For someone who has really terrible memory, I’m kinda surprised how much I can remember haha. Makes me feel all nostalgic and stuff :/
Hmmmmmmm… I’d like to go on vacation in Korea or Japan, maybe Hong Kong? And I’ve always wanted to go back to the UK… ‘ARRY POTTAH!!
As for a dream home, I don’t really have one actually… I’m kinda chill with wherever God places me hahah. If I do end up doing medical missions (which is a long-term goal for me), I would probably live somewhere that wouldn’t be very fancy anyhow…
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths." Proverbs 3:5-6, ESV
Lately I’ve been thinking about what it means to trust in the Lord, and to give up everything to him. I mean, does he really mean everything?? He doesn’t really need to be involved in this, and I can probably take care of this one myself, and this thing is too petty for someone like God…
But the Bible clearly commands us to give God your ALL. EVERYTHING. NOTHING LEFT. Let him take every burden from you, and see how light your heart will be! Give anything and everything to him in prayer, and submit to his will and timing; I promise you, He will not fail you. He may not do what you want him to do, but he always knows best! Have faith that the Almighty God will lead you where you need to go :)
I have one more verse for you that (I feel) is inextricably tied in with this one:
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:6-7, ESV