"When the pride comes, then comes dishonor, but with the humble is wisdom." Proverbs 11:2, NASB
So I had discussion section for physics this morning. About halfway through, someone was asking a question that I knew the answer to and I interrupted him. After the event I felt ashamed of my behavior; who was I, a fellow student, to correct him? Did I know everything in the book forwards and back? Did I need to (proverbially) shove a sock in his mouth to show off the tiny bit of knowledge I possessed?
These questions plagued my conscience for the next half hour or so and I resolved to apologize to the guy, but my pride once again got in the way… what did it matter if I apologized? He might think I was really weird, and it’s not like we would talk again anyways… and what about everyone else in the class? I bet they thought I was rude too, but they wouldn’t know that I’d apologized to him… what was the point?
But I knew in my heart that, even in this small instance, I had to make things right with my peer and with God; so when it was time to pack up, I went over to his table and told him I was sorry for rudely interrupting his question and promised that I wouldn’t do it again…
And now I have a new friend. His name is Kevin :]
After Kevin and I parted ways, I felt a huge burden being lifted from me, being replaced with pure joy… oh how God is so good to me. I pray that He would continually humble me and strip away the pride that hardens my heart to His grace and love!
Also, it has been raining the entire day… it’s summertime, Berkeley. Get with the program.
“ 1 Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. 2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will…
“[I] often feel that [my] prayers scarcely reach the ceiling; but, oh, get into this humble spirit by considering how good the Lord is, and how evil [I am], and then prayer will mount on wings of faith to heaven. The sigh, the groan of a broken heart, will soon go through the ceiling up to heaven, aye, into the very bosom of God.”—Charles Spurgeon (via jessicahah)
1.) One sign of salvation and of the Spirit dwelling within you is gentleness.
"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control." - Galatians 5:22, ESV
2.) Even when rebuking someone, do it in love and gentleness; just as God forgave us of all our sins, so should we forgive others and have compassion toward their sin and struggles, because we too are sinners.
"But wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, open to reason, full of mercy and good fruits, impartial and sincere." - James 3:7, ESV
"Brothers, if anyone is caught in any transgression, you who are spiritual should restore him in a spirit of gentleness. Keep watch on yourself, lest you too be tempted." - Galatians 6:1, ESV
I just wanted to do some out-loud thinking… this is the place for that kind of stuff, right?
So lately I’ve been thinking about my YouTube channel. I’ve been going strong for a year, putting up videos (almost) every week, and I seem to be slowly gaining some popularity and momentum. But as big of an investment this is of my time, energy, and brainpower, I have to step back sometimes and figure out WHY I’m doing all this.
I’m not gonna lie, the idea of popularity was always attractive to me, even from the days of elementary school; the idea that everybody knew you, that they talked about you… you were a hot topic (maybe for me not-so-hot >.>). Fame made me feel good about myself, knowing that people recognized me for something.
But that’s not why I’m here, is it? Will people’s opinions of me really matter before an awesome and holy God?? Will God look at the number of Facebook friends I have or the amount of subscribers I have to my YouTube channel and say, “Well done, my good and faithful servant”? Probably not.
So then what’s the use? If I’m just pursuing this for my own glory, shouldn’t I stop? The answer is yes. But I am constantly reminded of this passage: “Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.” (Colossians 3:23-24) God gave me the gift of music so that I could share it with others and glorify HIM.
Not to put others on any pedestals, but I’ve been inspired by Sam Ock. He’s a relatively well-known YouTube musician, but he expresses his faith in every video, whether explicit or implicit; but however he does it, he glorifies God.
I want to be like that. Honestly, though being popular feels nice, the feeling won’t be there forever, and if that’s my only aim as I spend the time recording, editing, and uploading these videos then I will have wasted a whole year (and counting).
In conclusion, here is what I wanted to say: I am rededicating my channel. It is not for riches here on earth, but for the treasures that I store up in heaven. It is for God’s glory, not for my own.
Yep, that’s pretty much it. Props to you if you made it all the way to the end of this blabbering :)